transgender

For Such A Time As This

This past Tuesday, I traveled to Jefferson City to testify against the removal of the sunset on bills that could permanently ban gender-affirming medical care for trans youth in Missouri and permanently bar trans youth from participating in sports alongside their peers.

What happens in Missouri matters. Many states look to Missouri to see what is possible legislatively, so what gets passed here — and what does not — carries weight far beyond our borders.

As I’ve been reflecting on this week, I keep returning to our theme: By a Different Light. On Sunday, we will talk about day — about how daylight exposes what has been hidden, how it calls things out into the open. And that truth feels especially present right now.

There is a growing number of trans adults, parents of trans kids, and even medical professionals who are afraid to testify publicly against these bills. They are afraid of retaliation, professional consequences, harassment, and real harm. To speak in the light right now comes with real risk.

I am deeply grateful, and humbled, to serve in a role where I can speak not only as a faith leader, but as a trans faith leader, calling our representatives toward a deeper practice of justice, mercy, and compassion. To invite them into holy curiosity about the lives that are most impacted by these decisions. To ask them to truly listen to those who are being harmed.

On Wednesday morning, I also joined dozens of organizations from across the state at a rally in the Capitol rotunda. We linked arms and stood shoulder to shoulder, singing and chanting, reminding one another that we show up for one another. We show up for Black lives. For immigrant lives. For trans lives. For queer lives. For workers’ lives. Because together, our voices carry a deeply moving power.

That rally was deeply needed after the heartbreaking and exhausting hearing on Tuesday. Missourians have been fighting these anti-trans bills for years now, and at times it feels as though those in power have not heard a word, as though harm is dismissed in the pursuit of an agenda at any cost.

And yet, I remain honored to be one voice among many who continue to speak love into the hearing rooms. Love for trans youth who desperately need to know they are not alone. Love for parents doing everything they can to protect their children. Love for trans adults who are not only advocating for today’s youth, but also for the younger versions of themselves, the children who always knew who they were.

For such a time as this, my friends, it is urgent that we keep showing up. Each in the ways we can. Whether that looks like someone who knits blankets for trans folks who testify, wrapping them in warmth and protection. Whether it means traveling to Jefferson City, attending a rally, having hard conversations with loved ones, or choosing to hope even when hope feels fragile and distant and perhaps beyond our reach.

This work is not easy. But it is sacred. And it matters deeply. When we share our light and our love, when we refuse to turn away from one another, we participate in bending the moral arc of the universe toward justice, peace, freedom, and love for all. May we keep showing up. May we keep loving boldly. And may we continue to believe that what we do, as we link arm in arm, truly matters.

In Solidarity,
Pastor Eli

A Prayer for Honoring Transgender Day Of Remembrance

A Prayer for Honoring Transgender Day Of Remembrance

The weight of this year's Transgender Day of Remembrance feels heavier and more personal as anti-trans violence is on the rise across the United States and globally. Anti-trans legislation appears on ballots across nearly every state. Threats, erasure, and hostility continue to come from multiple levels of government.

There is also new data from TGEU’s Trans Murder Monitoring 2025 that reveals dangerous shifts. There is a growing number of murder victims who are trans movement leaders and activists. The TGEU report states that over the past year, trans activists accounted for about 14% of reported murders, nearly doubling from the previous years. Thus, making activists and movement leaders the second most targeted group globally. 

Locally, we feel that weight as Metro Trans Umbrella Group reported a threat made against the Trans Memorial Garden here in St. Louis. MTUG is taking the necessary precautions to protect our community, yet it is heartbreaking to know that such hatred sits so close to home.

So today, we call to mind all our trans, nonbinary, and gender expansive beloveds who have died by senseless violence. We call to mind all those who died by suicide because they could not find safety or belonging or hope in their own lives due to the hatred that fills our world today. We remember all those who went unnamed, misnamed or who were never known as their true selves. We draw upon their strength, their bravery, and their self-love. We give thanks for the way they lived their lives as their authentic selves and for all teachings they bestowed upon us. We pray for the courage to carry on their legacy and know their names. We mourn and grieve their deaths as every person taken from us deserved a lifetime of love, safety, and celebration.

God of Many Faces, God of Many Genders, God of Infinite Holy Expressions, grant us strength to carry on their legacy of bravery, courage, and self-love. Help us to remember them. Help us to honor their lives. Help us to protect one another with fierce, enduring care, because the only way we get through all of this grief is with one another.

To every trans, nonbinary, and gender-expansive person who hears or reads these words: as a community, we offer prayers of deep love and gratitude. Thank you for your courage. Thank you for your existence. The world is better because you are here, exactly as you are. God of Infinite Love, we ask that You strengthen every heart that feels afraid; comfort every heart that grieves; and steady every heart that worries about what comes next.

Holy One, help us rise in voice and spirit. Help us challenge and stand against hateful rhetoric. Help us to live authentically and safely. Remind us that our power cannot be stolen, because we are so powerful together. Remind us that trans people have always existed, in every generation, in every culture, in every place and time. Remind us we will continue to exist with beauty, brilliance, and strength.

And may hope take root in all of us. A fierce, steady, and unshakeable hope. A hope that insists on life, insists on dignity. A hope that insists that the world can and will be transformed into a world where trans people are protected, uplifted, and alive.

Love and strength to each of you,
Pastor Eli

P.S. If you would like to learn more about the statistics and who is affected by transphobic violence, you can click here.